I find myself thinking about this a lot. That grey murky thing called the future. The same thing I cannot see, but I cannot not mull over.
And many times I ask myself if it would be a gift or a curse to be able to see the future. I am a typical Singaporean in one sense. If I could see the future, the first thing I would buy is a copy of Lianhe Wanbao for the 4D numbers.
The next thing I would do is see what I would be like in the future. But the same question pops up every time. What if I don't like what I see? It would be scary because that's the deal with such things. Whatever you see, it becomes your destiny. The more you try to escape it, the more you end up moving towards it. At least that's what I learn from the movies.
Which always leads me to ask myself another question, if I had this particular power, would I be using it, or would it be using me? I am pretty sure many things would change, but at the end of it, I will be poorer for it. I know who would be richer for me having this power though. The person who buys me out of the rights to tell my own story, then makes it into a bestselling film.
I know, I ask myself a lot of questions. It is what happens when you have to take long bus and MRT rides everyday and you're sick of the songs in your mp3 player. But I cannot help thinking about it, what I would do if I had this power. Then I realise that my desire for power, it really stems from a need to have money.
No matter what power I have, I would use it to earn money. Even if that power was something stupid like being able to detect whether an egg is boiled inside its shell, I would demonstrate it on some talent show and earn money with it. Not to mention eat perfect hard-boiled eggs, every time.
I hope that when I look into the future, I see myself happy. Of course it would be nice if I were super rich and all I had to worry about was finding happiness, like in those shows where there are super rich old men who are desperately unhappy. Money can't give you everything, but without money, you can't do shit.
But above all, happiness matters most. Because being unhappy makes you more prone to heart disease, hypertension, high blood pressure, diabetes, cancer and assorted STDs.